re-engaging

i am having a little trouble re-engaging with life after spending last week retreating from it. . . i actually hit the wall today.

i had internet and computer issues for the whole day. . . now understand my computer has no downloaded games on it - it is my business computer and it is not for playing - i have Wii for that. and i am very, very careful with where i surf and what i do as far as installation of software.

so i was none too pleased when i ended up having to transfer all my files to an external hard drive and re-install the operating system this morning. and i was even more unhappy when i realized that i didn't include some driver files for the wireless adapter i use for my internet connection. bad kar!

9 hours and 2 calls to Comcast, 4 calls to and from HP support, and 5 calls back and forth with a good friend who speaks computer-ese, and i still didn't have an internet connection. AND it had nothing to do with the missing drivers. . .

i had a project for work due tomorrow that i had to put finishing touches on and i was unavailable by email today. . . not good. i was stressed out - yep, i was way more than stressed out.

i was honest with Dave when he came home - so honest in fact, that he cut me a wide path. smart man. he did call the computer-ese speaking friend for me. nice man.

funny thing about today, i had talked to two good friends - one whose girlfriend had broken up with him, after he seemingly did everything right and one who finds herself in a really difficult situation where no matter what she does right, it is no guarantee that things will improve in her home.

doing everything right does not equal success. let me write that again for all our benefit. . .
doing everything right does not equal success.

and most days it's not much fun either. . .